w00t

Finished with school, certificate in hand! That is all.

bowling...graduation...real life

Well last night I went out with a ton of people from my church and we bowled. Apparently they get together one Monday a month and they split into teams and they just bowl for fun. I was on my Pastor's team and he is pretty competitive. It was fun sometimes but honestly it reminded me why I don't bowl at all. I totally suck at bowling. I got a few spares but not until my last game and then I managed one strike but not until my last game as well. It was sad really.

On a much happier note, tonight is my graduation!!!!!! I am leaving work at 3 to go home and get changed and then to the bank to pull out my last $300 for tuition and then heading over to Deanna's house and she is taking me out to dinner. I am so excited to be done with school!! Friday was my last class but it feels like I won't be done until after tonight. looks like its going to rain too so chances are we won't be able to walk around Royal Oak but that's OK, I don't mind coming home after dinner and relaxing.

Oh I am so looking forward to my week, I am going to keep busy and not have time to think much, which is exactly what I want so I'm not complaining. I have massages to do tomorrow afternoon and a huge party for myself on Thursday night and I'm off Friday and I have another massage and then I'm going to a BBQ and then hopefully I can relax the rest of the weekend. I love 3 day weekends so darn much.

Today at work we're doing inventory which we do twice a year or something and lunch is provided for us which means I get to choose what we're eating and I chose pizza. I have to call and put my order in soon too so that its ready by 12 to deliver. There's going to be a lot too, like 6 pizzas and some salad. Yum yum eat em up. I haven't been eating a lot lately, if at all. I have been losing weight, which is what I want, but its so hard when I'm confronted with things like pizza. Its a small weakness of mine and I'm not used to feeling so guilty eating it. All I want is to be thin and beautiful. Its so sad that people like me have to jump through hoops just to get to that point.

What is my life coming to?

Another Movie!!

OMG I can't wait to see "Gamer".

It comes out on September 4th of this year, and it looks amazing. Its is an action thriller set in a near future when gaming and entertainment have evolved into a new hybrid. Humans control other humans in mass-scale, multi-player online games: people play people...for keeps. Mind-control technology is widespread, and at the heart of the controversial games is its creator, reclusive billionaire Ken Castle (Michael C. Hall). His latest brainchild, the first-person shooter game "Slayers," allows millions to act out their most savage fantasies online in front of a global audience, using real prisoners as avatars with whom they fight to the death.

Kable (Gerard Butler) is the superstar and cult hero of the ultra violent "Slayers." Kable is controlled by Simon, a young gamer with rock star status who continues to defy all odds by guiding Kable to victory each week. Taken from his family, imprisoned and forced to fight against his will, the modern day gladiator must survive long enough to escape the game to free his family, regain his identity and to save mankind from Castle's ruthless technology.

That was all taken from IMDB that's why it sounds so professional. I am looking forward to it, ever since I saw the preview for it when I watched the Hangover with Lori. This is why I love previews at the movies, it gives me something to look forward to later on in the future lol.

I love you Gerard Butler, you are so fuckin hot.

I can't wait to get another bike

I went to the motorcycle show today, my friend Steve took me on his bike, he has a Yamaha R1 and we went like 120 on the freeway and it was fricken awesome. The only thing that was scary was that he was going really fast around the turns and whatever but I asked him to slow down a bit and he did.

He had a helmet for me that isn't even coming out until September! Its an icon brand helmet, and he's got a parts store and he sells icon stuff for a living so they gave him one and its so beautiful. Its black and red and has Detroit written on it and has a mean looking dog on the side baring its teeth and on the back it says Represent. It is sweet, and I got to wear it and people were asking about all day, it was awesome.

A few people showed up from my church too with their bikes, Bud and his wife Sharon were there and then Brenda and Collin. I'm glad they could show up and have fun. There's some pictures below that show the bikes and all too.

this is my friend Steve

Just some of the bikes that were at the show. When we left from Dynamic we had more than 100 with us.

John in the red shirt. He is the owner of Dynamic Powersports on 9 mile in Eastpointe. He was one of the guys that put on the show.

yup, that's me on a bike. On Steve's bike trying to look hot but I'm sure I didn't pull it off lol. If I am getting a new bike I want an R6, not an R1. I want something small.

So yeah, that was really it. I have more pictures but they are just of bikes, and more bikes. I'm like the only one that likes them ha ha, so I'll spare you all those pictures. Anyway so I'm home now and tired. I have to go to work tomorrow and then I'm coming home and getting ready to go out bowling with my church bowling league, which isn't really a league as much as it is a bunch of people who have nothing to do on a Monday night so they go to 13 and Jefferson bowling alley and have a blast. I'm going to start being apart of that, on Monday at least.

I am addicted to a new show on USA called "Royal Pain". Its about a really good Dr. who gets blacklisted from every New York hospital because he let a hospital trustee die because he was saving the life of a young kid instead and so he and his brother go to the Hampton's for the holiday weekend and he saves a life of some famous rich person at some high class party and he ends up sort of accidentally becoming a Dr. that caters to the rich and famous and its kinda funny, but sweet sometimes. Kinda cool because his g/f leaves him before the wedding and all and he is depressed and he gets his life back together. Its a good show, watch it.

Well, its late and time for bed now, goodnight all.

Sitting, waiting, wishing, hoping.

Im a geek, this I know.

Tonight I saw Transformers 2, I loved it, maybe because I was sheltered as a kid from stuff like that, now I can't get enough of all the comic-turned into movie things and all the old TV show movies i.e. transformers.

Then I went for BBQ at Red hot and blue with my group. That was yum yum eat em up. Maybe its a southern thing but I love putting coleslaw on top of all my BBQ sandwiches, and even really just plain meat and cheese sandwiches. My fam down south does it I'm sure, but up here people frown on it, dunno why, its delicious.

Here's how much of a geek I am too, I think I might join my church's Monday night bowling thing they do. $10 and i get to wear the shoes and bowl to my hearts content, what more could I ask for?

I am planning another trip to Chicago for sometime in July, most likely the end of July or something, going to take the train and stay with friends who are really excited to be seeing me again and I don't have to pay for much of anything except for food and maybe cab fare even though I am going to walk everywhere I can. I'm going to go to the museum and the aquarium since I didn't get to see those two things last time I went, and they were what I was most looking forward to seeing, besides the food show. I am really excited, I think going alone will allow me to see what I want to see and I won't have to worry about having a "romantic" trip and then being disappointed when it doesn't turn out like I expected.

I hope there is some good bands playing while I'm there for the week, too bad I missed Plushgun there, but I still got to see them here so its OK.

I need to start walking again, I'm getting stronger from massage work and whatever, and I haven't been eating as much lately since I'm so busy, here's hoping the combination of all 3 will get me in shape :)

OK, off to Jessica's house to play board games and video games! I'm spending my Saturday night in, you read it right. I'm looking forward to it though :)

Peace

Some days are just better than others

thats all I really wanted to say.

Thank heaven's for Bike Night

Last night was bike night in Roseville at Dooley's on Gratiot, we go there every Wednesday but I think we'll be going somewhere else from now on and just moving the entire event someplace else because Dooley's sucks, their music blows and they won't let us advertise for anything because their Nazi's. We're more likely to have it at the Box, the only problem with that is its a bit far for some people.

John picked me up on his bike and rode us over there, my dad was working in the garage when he pulled up and I hopped on his bike and he sped away ha ha. My dad waved but I could see he wasn't too happy. It was so damn hot yesterday! Don't get me wrong, I love the heat, but it wasn't good for riders with their leather on. I took a chance and didn't wear anything but a wife beater and I was OK, although if we had dumped the bike somehow I probably wouldn't have any skin anymore.

I can't wait until Saturday so I can see Transformers!!! OMG!! I've been waiting a long time for it, and it is going to be awesome! Plus I'm going to the 4pm show at MJR so it'll be cheapo tix.

Another movie I am dying to see is Harry Potter and the half blood prince. That comes out on July 15th which is a Wednesday. that is gonna be awesome, but sad too because that means that there's only one more after that and then the series is all over for good. :( Although the last movie is going to be made in 2 parts.

Anyway, off topic lol, bike night might be moved, hopefully that won't interfere when I can actually go since it will be a lot farther then I would like to drive every week, but maybe I can catch a ride with the guys or something. I cannot wait to get another bike. I want to practice more and see if I can get the shifting gears thing more down before that though, I don't want to get a heavy bike either, just a small Ninja 250 is fine by me. at least at first :)

oh. em. gee

OMGOSH Plushgun was amazing. Me and Lori got a bit buzzed/drunk and danced our little hearts out right in front of the stage!

I'll start from the beginning. about 2 years ago there was this web show that we got addicted to that is called We Need Girlfriends. It took place in NYC and was about 3 college grads that all got dumped on the same day and who were all moving in with each other. So they are on a quest to get over their now exes and to find new ladies. Its very funny, and cute and the guys are great actors and its just cool that they made this whole thing on their own.

So in the very first episode I watched there was a song that I just was falling in love with and I found the band in the credits and they were called Plushgun, and so I downloaded some of their music and also found their myspace and added them and I started to listen to their stuff all the time, meanwhile looking for when they would ever go on tour. They mostly stuck near or in NYC and so it was like I'd either have to be more patient and wait for them to get bigger or go to NY and see them. Money is tight, so I chose to wait ha ha. So a few weeks back I saw on their myspace they they were going on tour!! Finally! and!!...they were coming to MI!!!!! even better!! sorry there was so many !! there, I was just really excited for a second. So they were coming to Lansing and so I told Lorraine, who shares my love of them and we decided to get tickets, which were only $10, how cool is that?

So I figured that Mac's bar would have to be bigger and better then most bars if they were going to have Plushgun playing there but apparently not many people there even knew about them so other then me and Lori, there was maybe 3 other fans and then the rest of the place was filled up with the other bands that played, of which there were like 4 or 5 and the family and friends of the other bands that played since they were like high school bands and they needed to be babysat or something.

Anyway, so we got to talk to Dan and Taylor and Matt through out the night and we got pictures of them and everything and even though I'm an idiot and didn't remember to put my card back in my camera, I had my phone on me and it takes decent photos if I want it too. Plus the guy that was at the swag table for Plushgun had a camera and took some of us and he's going to send them to me. I will have those posted soon. I totally have a crush on Dan, if he was single and didn't live in NYC and I didn't already have someone I was keeping my hopes on, then I'd totally go for him, ha ha. As if he'd go for me though. He was so nice too, and he told me and Lori to dance in front and act crazy for the band so that other people would too, and even though not more then me and her and 2 other people really danced, we DID act crazy, and it was like a sauna in there and we were literally dripping sweat from everywhere. Then he came down off the stage and danced with me and he was inches from my face with the mike I swear I thought he was going to have me sing into it LOL, OMG what a rush, just thinking about it now and I've got a grin on my face, he is so amazing, his music makes me happy no matter what is happening, that's why I love them so much, I always want to dance when I hear their music. :)

They thanked us for dancing after the show and I got a poster signed by them and Dan signed it "thanks for dancing your rox off", so cool. They were so worth it to drive an hour and 30 minutes and then wait in the hot sun for another 30 just to get in and then bake alive in a hot bar with nothing to drink but a sex on the beach. I would do it again in a heart beat. but hey, me and Lori have driven farther then that to see good music played live, this was nothing.

OK, back to "work" now.

more later.

Staying strong, in the unknown

I am staying strong despite how complicated and tangled up my emotions are right now. I am being as patient as I can be for someone in love and with no knowledge about what is going on or what will happen or what they are thinking. I don't know my future and I can't be sure of anything anymore until someone tells me what the truth is. I don't cry at all anymore, I just feel waves of speculation, doubt and helplessness overwhelm me and I try to block it out with my mantra that I am a strong woman, I love fully and will get through this time in my life with grace and my head held high and I will be happy, no matter the outcome, because I am a strong woman, I love fully and will get through this time in my life with grace and my head held high and I will be happy, no matter the outcome...

God has a plan you you and for me. I am waiting on you to show me that path, or not.

I've seen the path you're eyes wander down, and I wanna come too. Please let me.

You probably will never read this or any of my previous blogs, and if you do don't take them all the wrong way. I am not trying to pressure you into anything by writing out all my feelings in these last few blogs, I just have no where else to express what I'm thinking and feeling. If you have a problem with it all, don't read it, but this is my last one about you. I love you.

Movies, movies, movies...again!

OK so now I HAVE to see Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland.

here are a few pictures of the characters below

The Queen is played by who else but Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp as the Mad Hatter is brilliant in my opinion. New girl Mia Wasikowsha will play Alice Kingsley and I must say she looks the part and last but not least, Alan Rickman will play the Caterpillar. OMFG how cool is that?

Next movie I want to see is more of a love story but set throughout time, its totally fascinating and after I read the book a few years ago, it was totally mind boggling but great. Its called The Time Travelers Wife and the two main characters are Rachel McAdams(the wife) and Eric Bana(the time traveler) I won't even explain it, you'll have to read about it online or read the book because all I can say is its amazing.

The next one is called Taking Woodstock. This looks like a fantastically made movie and it has my favorite stand up comedian as the main actor, Demeitri Martin, and one of my favorite sctors as well Liev Schreiber. He plays this guy who's family is going to lose all their hundreds of acreage if they don't come up with some money quick for the bank and so they find out about a local music festival for a few bands and they need a place to play. So they get paid and are able to save their land by having these people come and set up their concert and that was the start of Woodstock. I don't know if their was any truth in the movie but I think there might have been. It looked really awesome.

The next one is a little movie directed and produced by Sam Mendes and I really like his work a lot. Its called Away We Go and it has John Krasinski in it and I just LOVE him as Jim from The Office so I'll see him in just about anything just shy of porn. The movie is about a young couple in love who are expecting their first baby and so they travel across America in search of the perfect place to settle down and have their baby. Along the way they meet up with family and friends and they connect to them and each other in ways they haven't before and find the true meaning of "family". John has a hippy beard and scraggly clothes in this movie but I think it totally works for him.

I really wanted to go see Transformers on Wednesday night when it came out but I decided instead to go with a few people from my church on Saturday at 4pm to the MJR on 15mile to see it and then after their all going to grab some dinner nearby there. I think it would be more fun to do that then see it alone like I was planning on doing on Wednesday. Unfortunately I had no one that wanted to go see the movie with me so thank goodness my church invited me :)

I did see The Hangover with Lorraine though and that was so awesome. We saw it on Friday and we got there before 6pm so we got the tickets for only $4.50! what a deal! On Saturday the tickets will be the same price as well, can't beat it yo!

OK, well that's all the movies for now, but give me a day, I'm sure their will be more.

Peace